child at heart

So I have applied for a real job thats in North Carolina that I am praying about, so pray with me? It was kind of sudden but my teacher told me about it so I applied. Whats the worst that can happen? God will shut the door for it right? Then I shall move on from that. I have also applied for several missions opportunities and if the Lord grants me my wishes (bad theology I know) I would be moving somewhere away from the US tonight and doing missions full time. Who knows. Either way I am applying and waiting to see what doors the Lord closes and which ones He keeps open. Either way… I am trying to find some kind of path in my life right now. Am I scared? Yes, I am actually. Is He teaching me patience? Yes, He is. And it’s really hard for me to let go… but its what I must do. Ugh, here I go rambling again. It happens.