child at heart

I just wanted to let everyone know my progress for the trip and where I am personally on the whole thing. The post below this one tells the tentative schedule for our trip that I just received. I am at $1,765 money wise, which leaves me -$235 of what I have to turn in for my plane ticket (By May 30th) and roughly -$1,835 for the whole trip. I continue to pray the Lord will provide, and assume he is bringing the money in slowly to teach me how to trust him… but man, I am weak and I am struggling to hold on to that and be positive about the whole thing. I do not know if Satan is using my fear as a means to break me, I am sure that he is… but I just ask for prayers more than anything right now.

The money will come in time, I do understand that… so please do not take this as me begging for money. I just need more faith, Lord help my unbelief. I’m not sure exactly what I am feeling right now… I am anxious, and determined, and confused, and unfaithful and it causes me to fall each day. I do not like being this way, and I do not enjoy doubting my God – it only brings me more pain and confusion.

So please, anyone who may read this – hear my cry for your prayers over me right now and for over everyone else who will be going on this trip. By the way we have one more person who will be coming with us: Emily Stutzman