child at heart

Have you ever thought what if all this Jesus talk is just that – talk? What if I am spending all this time choosing the believe this fairy tale myth about this God, His death, and His ability to save all humankind. I try to go around and tell people this belief I have whole heart-idly in order for them to be “saved from their sins”.  “He answered, I tell you, if these were silent, the very stones will cry out.”  Luke 19:40  What if when I die all that happens is I get  cremated and then worms and insects eat my dust and that’s all that is left of me? I have thought all this  very recently and I love how the Lord guides me to the truth at the same time to just open my eyes to the truth.

If there is no God how is it possible that a woman has to ability to sustain her own life while giving shelter, food and daily life to one or more little ones at the same time? Go ahead and give me a scientific answer, but when that little one is out of her body and she goes back to normal while this new life breathes is just amazing to me. And if that is not enough how is it that no two sunsets ever look the same? Or how is it that our Milky Way Galaxy hangs in perfect balance in our universe? Or if the stars are just an accident then why are they so beautiful? “The heavens declare the glory of God, and the sky above proclaims his handiwork. Day to day pours out speech, and night to night reveals knowledge.”  Psalm 19: 1-2How do such vibrant colors and patterns just accidentally appear and if they are just there why are they so beautiful? It is almost as if they were made for someone so they could specifically sit there and marvel at them.  “The heavens proclaim his righteousness, and all the peoples see his glory.” Psalms 97:6   

If there is no God then why do we even exist? To live? Possibly give birth to children? Experience marriage and or divorce? Loose people we love? Die of natural causes or slowly die from a torturing disease? What is the payoff? Agony and a day to day monotonous life and then forever being buried in dirt? I cannot fathom that, that kind of life is all we exist for. I believe we are here to glorify our AWESOME God in happiness and torture, in our lives and even more in our deaths. Every sunrise, sunset, star,  child’s smile, and friends death screams to me the sovereignty of my Lord. The entire world continues to remind me that this world is NOT my home. How much greater will my time in heaven with my Father will be.

So do I ever seriously think what if all this God talk is bogus? Yes, I do, but praise the Lord that the Earth and everything in is screams the truth out to me.